Confuse me

Yes...

I have kissed a lot of girls before. Not a question about kissing them. I have had girlfriends. But until I realized that I am not for them. I even tried to pretend that I am straight, which kills me, my own identity. And even gave me a kid. Yes, I have one. Out of wedlock.

I went out at the age of 25. Yes. I am out, if they will ask me about my preference, I answered them “Yes!” I can be as loud as I can in certain places. I have embraced the true me, which created a very good impressions among my peers. And gave a certain respect for me.

I have had several girlfriends and had boyfriends as well. One lasted 2 yrs. And the shortest is just 3 months. But all were serious. I had flings, if I am single. I always on my best trying to be faithful as much as possible.

But lately, I cannot be faithful as I can as a result of certain circumstances that I am on the interlude of avenging last break-up. Well, sad to say, we are 3 guys in 1 partner at the same time. It was hard to accept at first then I gave up. I was just hearing things about my ex-boyfriend from my friends but I didn't mind it at first, still tried to save what ever I can. Could that be love? That was my question... But it was not. It was just plain stupidity.

Just some thoughts of having an older guy as a partner would be more secure. But I was wrong. It just merely laid on the things based on trust and given situation.

And lately, I am not sure what is going on. I am kissing girls. My friends are teasing me if I was just playing or acting or pretending to be gay. I just answered: No, I am gay.

But the funny thing on it, I am enjoying kissing girls lately.

Or I am just confused?

NO way.

Though I am single, I could probably have a girlfriend? Since I am not dating any guys.

Either ways, what ever can make me happy, that'll be it.

And I am still gay.